Hello, my new life

Hi there, peeps! I've finally getting active for my blog.. Like seriously, I took almost like 2 and a half hours to get rid of this layout. So I hope you liked it cause I kinda like it even though it's simple lol. So I'm been doing well these days, can't believe that I actually blog after for so many delays since I'm having exam last week. & yeap I managed to survive for my exams, they were like shit. I can't wait to have some holidays for myself, going shopping around & hanging with my buds. Well, I'm kinda confused for that last part. I'm getting really depressed these days.. I hate my life. I hate here. I hate everything. I hate pretending. I don't know what else to do besides blogging bout my emotions. I'm sick of crying myself to bed, I'm sick of being someone I'm not. I'm sick of pretending like I'm actually okay. Oh well.. my life ain't that bad after all right? Since I still got my best pals in KK. I love them to bits! & I will never ever ever ever leave you guys. I love you all so much, much as you can expect. Well, I don't know what I'm actually mumbling about, but still what I said just now was all true, I love you all so much. :)

♥ F my life。

厭倦了我的生活
厭倦了身邊的演劇
厭倦了一切
我要瘋了
我真的要瘋了
可以不要再煩我了嗎，我真的快崩潰了。

晚安。

♥ 累

一句話形容最近的我，我很累。
我最近忙功課，報告，忙的快瘋了。
真的沒時間再想些有的沒的
這樣也好，累了就歇，忙完了就睡。
不會再多想些什麽，就這樣過了忙碌的一天。

其實。我有好多話想說，可是
我不知道該說什麽，我只好沉默
努力的在笑，努力的把事情看開，努力的把自己弄得很快樂
怎麼覺得
這些偽裝真的好虛偽，真的好累
是不是因為我缺少了一個該訴苦的人，一個該安慰的人，一個該給安全感的人
怎麼覺得
自己好像很孤獨，很寂寞
總是要自己安慰自己
總是要自己告訴自己
真的好可怕，好糾結
我到底是怎麼了

算了吧，過去的事情就讓它過去吧。
人是要往前看，其他的就順其自然吧。
要好好愛自己啊，程順娟。