Hello, my new life

Hi there, peeps! I've finally getting active for my blog.. Like seriously, I took almost like 2 and a half hours to get rid of this layout. So I hope you liked it cause I kinda like it even though it's simple lol. So I'm been doing well these days, can't believe that I actually blog after for so many delays since I'm having exam last week. & yeap I managed to survive for my exams, they were like shit. I can't wait to have some holidays for myself, going shopping around & hanging with my buds. Well, I'm kinda confused for that last part. I'm getting really depressed these days.. I hate my life. I hate here. I hate everything. I hate pretending. I don't know what else to do besides blogging bout my emotions. I'm sick of crying myself to bed, I'm sick of being someone I'm not. I'm sick of pretending like I'm actually okay. Oh well.. my life ain't that bad after all right? Since I still got my best pals in KK. I love them to bits! & I will never ever ever ever leave you guys. I love you all so much, much as you can expect. Well, I don't know what I'm actually mumbling about, but still what I said just now was all true, I love you all so much. :)

♥ F my life。

厭倦了我的生活
厭倦了身邊的演劇
厭倦了一切
我要瘋了
我真的要瘋了
可以不要再煩我了嗎，我真的快崩潰了。

晚安。

♥ 累

一句話形容最近的我，我很累。
我最近忙功課，報告，忙的快瘋了。
真的沒時間再想些有的沒的
這樣也好，累了就歇，忙完了就睡。
不會再多想些什麽，就這樣過了忙碌的一天。

其實。我有好多話想說，可是
我不知道該說什麽，我只好沉默
努力的在笑，努力的把事情看開，努力的把自己弄得很快樂
怎麼覺得
這些偽裝真的好虛偽，真的好累
是不是因為我缺少了一個該訴苦的人，一個該安慰的人，一個該給安全感的人
怎麼覺得
自己好像很孤獨，很寂寞
總是要自己安慰自己
總是要自己告訴自己
真的好可怕，好糾結
我到底是怎麼了

算了吧，過去的事情就讓它過去吧。
人是要往前看，其他的就順其自然吧。
要好好愛自己啊，程順娟。

♥ New me

Hi guys! I'm finally back after for so many weeks of post-poned and I'm truthfully sorry for that and YAYERZZ I'm back!! So April is already starting and It's going quite smoothly. Nothing really happens and thank God that I finally done my KHB's project so now I could stop staring at those poop papers before I sleep. YAY! & also I'm going to participate some activities that I usually don't but this year am going to participate soooo wish me lucks! Am going to participate chinese debate competition (teacher force me to) & singing competition! (partnering with Zi Yee & Kai Yun)

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My mid term exam is next month so am going to work hard for all my subjects and well just wish me luck and i'll do my best! ohhhhhh I also had a haircut just now this afternoon, my hair is shorter right now (well not that short but still short.) and so smooth (harharhar) and so less.. and my fringe is so weird.. can't wait to let it longer again! Going to cut it straight next time?! Weeeeee. Just going to show you my new fringe haircut.. Urgh, ugliest fringe i've ever had.

(Don't speak. I know.)

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Something stupid. well.. let's just say that its funny perhaps.

♥ 四月

四月終於來了 終於可以鬆一口氣
同時也覺得很累 因為最近的行程都排的滿滿的
就連多餘的時間也沒有
黑眼圈又要來找我了 我要乖乖的早睡才行
恩 .. 最近的生活很簡單
沒有什麽特別的事情發生只是有時候覺得很討厭自己
覺得自己變了很多
跟朋友們都好像變成了陌生人 我真的好賤 呵呵
其實心裡的苦衷又有誰會明白呢 .. 算了吧

不要再說不好的事情了 只會讓自己傷心而已 何必呢 :)
明天又要開學了 說真的有點不想回去學校
因為又要面對一大堆的考試還有功課!!
我這一生中什麽也不討厭 只有功課!! 很 "幸運" 的成為了我的敵人
有時候真的真的很想拿簡單的行李 拋開一切 獨自一個人去旅行
如果世界上什麽煩惱也沒有 那該多好
活的那麼自在 真的是一件很幸福的事
不需要理會別人的看法 不需要委屈自己
真的很快樂吧 恩

所以從今天起我要學會對自己說
努力的做自己 努力的過完今天 明天將會是更好的一天 不需要理會別人的看法
他們又懂什麽呢 只有你自己最瞭解自己
所以只要做好自己的本分就夠了!
恩, 我就是這樣安慰我自己 哈

♥ 三月中

最近真的好累 我累的快睜不開眼睛了
一整天忙這個那個 真的快崩潰了
補習的功課沒做完 學校功課更不用說
爲什麽中三的生活總是那麼複雜
爲什麽人類也一樣那麼複雜

好糾結
我承認 我有時候真的好想哭
可是眼淚就是不想出來
好煩
真的好煩
如果這一刻我可以去海邊, 那該多好
一切的事情 就對海訴苦好了

Sometimes, no one knows you for who you are even your friends.

♥ I'm back again!

Finally I've blogged again! I miss my blogger so much :) Can't wait to share details about my life & i'm pretty sure you guys would love me again.. right? Hehehe so nothing much to say right now, well.. today is a bad day and i will always remember it but still thank you God for blessing me & my family! This is something that I will always remember in my heart, I love you so much God! Words can't explain how much I love you & guys please pray for Japan! I shouldn't complain for anything now since there's more people out there suffering for NOT having foods, drinks, clothes, shelter and even handphones! So I should really stop complaining about how suck my life is, I should cherish everything & the last thing that i wanted to say is.. I love my family, my relatives, my friends & GOD! May God bless you all :)

♥ VLOG 1 - March

Hi guys! :) I'm back for Video again ! This time it's going to be my first VLOG for March. And I'm truly sorry for the bad quality & the voice. Remember to turn up the volume! Heh and yeap. Sorry that my head keep spinning, I don't know why the hell do i do that :p

三月的生活

又來寫部落格了.. 只是突然覺得心裡有好多好多話想說出來所以就選擇在這裡說出來好了.. :)
最近的我很好 沒哭 不悲傷 沉默很多 安靜很多 ..
其實我沒有想太多 我不停的告訴自己 不要懷疑身邊的人 相信他們就好
但是 .. 但是 爲什麽我總是那麼失落 明知道那些話只是在安慰自己
明知道 事實並不是這樣 好多好多事情都變了 亂成一團
我快瘋了 就因為那幾件事情 既然可以把自己搞的好像失戀一樣
爲什麽 爲什麽 好多個爲什麽在心理面 卻不知道該對和誰訴苦
現在的我們 各有各的生活 各有各的行程 你說我會打擾你嗎
沒關係 我知道我很好 我一定可以的 這一點點的事情 我把它藏在心裡就好
不用說 不用訴苦 沒有人知道比有人知道更好 不如就這樣吧 恩 ..

♥ I'm an idiot

給大家看我白痴的一面 =)

My bored faces :) from Jenny Jien on Vimeo.

♥ Hello :)

一個月多了, 時間真的過得很快. 在這一個月多裏, 我面對了很多不同的事情, 交了新朋友, 學了很多, 真的很不可思議. 在這一個月多裏, 我已正式離開我沙巴的朋友們, 不再和他們住在同一個地區, 不再和他們同校 .. 事情真的改變很多. 我一向都很熟悉的你們, 怎麽突然之間變成 路人的陌生人. 好像越來越不了解你們了 可能是因爲我們不再同一個地方了吧 恩,我對自己說. 真的只是這樣.. 其實我沒有想太多, 我也沒有時間去想那麽多. 真的, 我會過得很好, 偶爾 真的只是偶爾 會懷念和你們一起生活的感覺.. 我又把背景換了,可能我還是比較喜歡自然的感覺吧 :)

I need cash

Hey fellas! It's been a long long time since I've ever update my blog, like seriously. So now I'm back to talk craps, well LIFE craps. Yeap, and I just found out a new problem that I'm facing, that is... CASH. Yes, I need cash so freaking much. I love pretty stuffs FYI, and I just can't help it. My hands started to get itchy and I just feel like buying it. I'm such a failure... since I'm wasting my pap's money each day... sorry Dad & I love you. If only I had a job, a job to work & to earn!! I seriously need cash! If you did read my tweets, I'm sure you know what am talking about.

• First. BlackBerry Bold 9000 (Christmas Present)
• Two. FujiFilm Hello Kitty Camera
• Three. Mask & Stuffs from Website
• Four. 2pm's lastest album: I'll be back + Members REAL signature + Comments!
• Concerts (Show Lo, Super Junior, CN Blue & JYJ)

Oh and I just found out a song that suits me really well, just too well.

(Shitty Day - Soko)

6 facts

First. I'm weird & rude young lady.
I love to scream when I saw hot guys, I love to drool when I saw pretty & yummy foods, I love to yell for nothing, I love to cry when someone cry their lungs off, I love to see pretty stuffs, I love to sing while I'm bathing cause I'm weird, VERY VERY weird. I'm rude cause I'll be pissed when somebody scold me stupid or anything for nothing, like really NOTHING at all. I'm rude cause I'm cool like that & that's what I am. Love it or not. :)

Two. I hate to eat chickens skins & the smell of pork soup.
Don't get me wrong but I really hate to eat chickens skins!! I feel yucky when I put it in my mouth or even chew it, I don't really like it but I still eat KFC chickens skins. LOL, i know right. I fking hate the scent of pork soup! Not that I don't like to eat it or what but I just hate it. It smells stinky & weird in the same time, that's why I really hate it. That's what I am, an alien. hehehe

Third. I'll scream or aww-ing for Hot Guys.
Not that I'm a pervert or something but seriously! How could you stay calm when you saw a hot british guy standing in front of you or even a europe guy. I'm serious, I'll suddenly became like a crazy-fan and screaming for them for being such a hottie. PS: that's why my mom hates to watch the tv with me cause I always screams when there's a hot guy appears hehehehe >:P

Fourth. I love my girlfriends & I call them "my babes"
I'm not a lesbian, i just love them to bits! Who don't love their own best friends anyways? SO please if your a douche bag then i don't blame you for being so stupid! >:D

Fifth. I don't like to eat orange juice but I like to drink orange juice
Isn't this so funny? I don't like to eat it but I like to drink it. Well, afterall~~* that's me right? so nothing to be freaky of or even putting the "i just saw a celebrity face" hehehe

Six. I love to eat & eat but I never grow fats. FML
No kids okay, i love to eat. I really eat a lot for your information, I could even eat 2 bowls of rice but sadly I never grow fat :C and I always stays between 40 - 42 KG. FYI again, I'm around sixty feet tall and now I still can't grow some meat and still maintenance like a skinny girl (that's why my paps always force me to eat chickens skins EW!!) so now my Christmas wish is probably growing more tall & more meats please!!

PS: I did not do this for fun, I did this because some anonymous ask for it :)

My Christmas Wish

Since everyone is talking about their Christmas wish already, I should tell you about my Christmas wish too, don't cha think? :) It's going to be pretty long since I love to waste my mama's money, haha. I'm just kidding, well let's see what I need here! xoxo

• My own dream bedroom \m/
• IPHONE 4 (Mom promised to give me once I have good results :D)
• Nikon D7000
• Ipod Nano
• Flip camera
  
• HIGH HEELS
• Handbags
• IMAC

I guess that's my own Christmas wish, i know it's a lot and it will cost a lot but i don't really care about it :P So how about yours? Share with me some :D Anyway, I need to go right now. This will be a very very short post and I apologized for that. See you guys soon, xoxo


(Patrick Stars says "Hi, I'm shy. hehehe")

trick or treat?

Just so I realized that today is actually HALLOWEEN DAY !!! That means more candies to get, more random costumes to wear & not to forget to dress up like a killer barbie doll. hah. I'm so excited for today since yeah it's Halloween but sadly no one really celebrates Halloween day at here, oh how i wish I'm at US right now so I could randomly take a pumpkin and decorate myself like a demon? Hahahaha. Major LOL. But still hope you guys had fun having trick or treat ;) If you got some candies, please give it to me. I'll eat it all by myself, i promise. Muahahaha. Okay, I sounds like a geek. Anyway howdy bloggers! I miss you guys so much, and did you miss me too? :) Well I'm kinda busy these days so am not going to talk so much about my life because it's pretty ... usual & forever alone like always. heh. Ooh, boutique cupcakes calling! Going to eat some cupcakes right now and CANDIES. So ciao, see ya guys later! Now why don't we listen some soft & good songs? :)

(Beautiful Soul - Jesse Mccartney)

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That's so Raven says Happy Halloween too, ooh yes you did. :D

jours d'école sont ici

I'm going to have extra classes start from tomorrow & well I'm gonna have exams in fourteen days so I'm just going to abounded my computer from now on so do miss me & yeah i'll totally miss you guys to bits! FYI, i haven't start studying for like.. two weeks straight? Hah. So am going to work hard from today! Good luck to all lokyukians for the up-coming exams, yeah babe! Before I go, I'm going to give you guys a song which I super duper love it!

(Just a Dream remix cover by Jason Chen & Joseph Vincent)

hiatus

(the only thing to do when you're bored, Read and be calm.)

Like the tittle said, I'm going to be Hiatus
maybe for study, maybe for exams and maybe for further reasons.
Oh by the way, my result sucks. I'm planning to have an A or B on the next term exam.
I'm deadly serious. I might not update this few weeks, so catch my updates today.

For my Form 3 friends who's gonna have PMR test next week, good luck babes. You know you're awesome so go bite that PMR up! :)

♥ 我們都怕痛

這首歌很好聽, 一個字讚 =]

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如果你是心情不好還是不爽的話, 請不要拿我出氣.
我不是你的出氣筒.
我也有我忍耐的限度.
請不要惹我動手.

secrets magnifiques

So yesterday I was going to watch Ugly Betty Season 4 (I know I'm slow but that's what Asia television offers) Right, as I were saying I was going to watch the show but then my brother take over the television and giving me a I need to watch face & so I went back to my study room. But thanks to him, I found two shows to watch. How could I ever forget that 90210 season 3 is already showing! Ugh, but thank God I already remembering it & watched it too. It was really nice, horny & mm.. more things that you couldn't expect? And what I love to watch is LIAM & ANNIE this pairs of couple is getting my attention now, too bad. Annie doesn't want to date Liam, i mean. After all, he is Naomi's Ex-boyfriend right? But I'm still aww-ing about Liam said "What if I don't wanna be friends?" Gosh, that was major hot. Tell me bout it! Oh and I also watched Ashley Tisdale new cast show Hell Cats, it was really nice cause with all the hot moves & dancing & back flip. If only I could do that too, that would be so awesome! No? Right. Ashley is growing so hot these days especially in the show, you won't be disappointing if you watch it, trust me. Now let the pictures explains it all :)


(Yeah babe! Finally we're senior year! - Navid)





Aren't they just so friggin cute? I know right, there's more cute scenes if you watch the show so do remember to watch Hell Cats and 90210 season 3. Oh and do you guys know that Gossip Girl Season 4 is back?! I know right! Ugh, I'm so excited about it!
If you guys haven't watch the preview, here's the preview.

This times Gossip Girl is about Find Love In Paris so guys/girls, do remember to watch it okay. I gotta go, going to grab a grilled chicken burger and french fries at Mcdonald's right now, see you guys soon. Au revoir x

Just so you're one of the club, doesn't mean that your in the club. - Hellcats

a day with drama

(This smile melts my heart)

So howdy folks, was busying around to study for my up-coming test. Just so you know, i have tons of problems for my History, I don't know which chapter to start and the next thing I knew. I couldn't memorize a word, wow. And then I found a lifesaver, know who is it? Let me introduced it. Mm, it may sounds ridiculous but it helps me a lot to well.. memorized the whole words? yeah, some of em'. Although it made me memorize for some of the chapters but still it saves me. So there it is, i'm going to introduce my lifesaver! yeah, it's SALT & SUGAR. You probably wondering what did them helped me right? Yeah, i could sense it with my psychic. Just joking, so remember three steps folks or maybe two steps, blah.

Three steps

First, Never ever eat anything with too much sugar or salt or oily before you exam. The best thing you eat is not too much salty, not too much sugar and not too much oily would help you memorize the words & could improves you memorizing of something you shouldn't forget about.
Two, Study while no music on, cause if you study while the music is on, you couldn't possibly concentrate on a single word of the book. You probably just listen to the lyrics and memorizing it and sing-along the whole day.
Three, Before you sleep, lay on your bed and focusing on something like a hole. See it focus-ly & breath slowly through your lungs. (I forgot what it could improves, but just try it!)

So, that's probably the easy three steps. Didn't try it before? Why don't you start now! Cause I also do the same thing & I'm thinking to eat less meat this 2 weeks (Probably) & eat lot's of veggies or fish or egg or milk to grow something in my frigging brain! Oh, you'll never know how it happens when you don't even try right? So try it today, I think mostly it could help you function your brain. Talk about History, i seriously need to memorize it now. By the way, i got helped from the drama Playful Kiss. Okay, bye :)